So I'll do my best to be quiet from 8pm tonight to 8pm Friday night.

Looking for new music?

check out http://2008.sxsw.com/music/showcases/date/2008-03-12.html ( should be the SXSW pages list of bands)

I just went through the whole list and listened to a few bars of almost every download available. I dowloaded 62 songs and made a SXSW 2008 playlist. I need to listen to each song later on to see what I'll actually keep, but I think I'll keep a lot of it.

I feel all cool and shit. Even if I can't get to Austin or see live music ever...

I call a time out.

I just cleaned up during T's nap. The downstairs that is. It's snowy out and we won't be going anywhere this afternoon. We did make it to church and that was good. Ben is on call and busy and won't be home til late if at all.

so it's me and the dynamic duo for the rest of the day.

So I call a time out- or a Day off.

I'm going to put in a movie. Maybe muppet movie. Maybe something else. G's never seen a real movie before except parts of muppet movie. Now is the time for 2 hours of TV I say.

I have been bad and eating chips and pizza and I think I'm about to fire up the oven for some cookies.

it's a snowy day off in here. I have two goals, 1 keeping it light and 2 to try to keep some of my cleaning up going through the day... we'll see.

according to some online menu planning thing from my gym, my goal for wieght loss is 1337 calories.

Now I'm looking for a good site to tell me how many calories are in things.

I had a quesidilla today. I have coffee with half and half and a good amount of sugar. and a cup of tea with skim milk and 1 small spoon of sugar.

Is that already 1000 cals?? Wondering.

This is the first one I did. I thought it was way goofy and then did another one. But then I like this one better.



I have one more that I like. But I'll need ya'll to ask for it.

I had planned to go into boston today. It's sunny and the high will be 40. A good day in the winter to go with two kids. I would take the T. But now I am getting chicken. I was going to take my super small stroller that only toby can fit in. I know G will whine and not want to walk for long bits. she is so ridgid at times.

I really only want to go to one place and spend some xmas money.

Should I do it? I am also hosting some out of town friends tomorrow and Ben isn't around. I need to go shopping for food and stuff for us all. I guess I can do that after 3. Also I have very overdue library books. at this point I *am* the fundraiser for the local library. I should just spend the morning close to home and take back the books no?

aie me. If only I wasn't scared of driving and I wasn't so committed to taking the T. When I do drive I feel like such a sell out. And still where the hell would I park. I can't handle parking. but do I have enough dollars for my commuter parking lot???

ANd I need to shower or at least get dressed and put on my hat ( yeah- that orange one that makes me look clean when I'm not!)

I have 12 dollars in my itunes bank.

helpp me get the most of my music.

What are the best songs from :

le Tigre
Yeah yeah yeahs
Clap your hands say yeah

Any other quite kooky fun music?

I've actually never heard the above except for exerpts on itunes. I like it but I can't choose.

I like rocking moving girl music.
I like to dance.

I like wacky shit too.

so other ideas are welcome.

( I like hot beats too)

anyone rec a good affordable table loom. ( I guess ridgid heddle is the key word for the size I'm talking about...)

I just checked my etsy email ( diff from my regular one and I forgot my password) and got this

by daybreaksadness profile shop contact
Hello.
It's been over a month- and I still haven't heard from you, nor received feedback. I will give it another couple weeks and if I do not hear from you, I will have no choice than to report this to Etsy.
Thank you for understanding.

-Kristin


Um report ME for Not giving feedback. WTF? Do I HAVE to leave feedback. I realize it's nice and encouraged. But reportable?

Apparently she tried to get in touch b/c I didn't email her that I got the pad nor left feedback and when I didn't reply I got this.

I'm a little annoyed. Why report me?

But I never read the Terms of agreements so what do I know.

HELP
and help me not yell at her.

Toby cried a little after I left and she said every now and then did a squeaky wheel cry but he did well. He sat and ate snack and lunch ( we call him Mr. Mouth so I knew he would unless he was freaked out). When G and I arrived he was playing in the yard and looked at me and smiled and kept on going to the car. I had to drag him out and it was The First time I couldn't get him in the Ergo b/c he was so mad at me for taking him out of those little go car things. He is napping now and G and I made a beaded necklace for her out of the cool beads we bought today. she and I sat nicely at this bakery and ate egg salad sanwhiches and spilt a cupcake and went to the pet store and saw the dogs and fish and had a fucking awesome morning.

the Secret to parenting- SCHOOL!

fuck yeah!

I just called mega blocks brand RE: their diego blocks set. They are Not a co-comp with mattel or FP. they said "our toys are completely non toxic." I asked if parts were made in China and I was told, "yes, some parts are"

I asked how could I trust their statments. FP is a big company and I would assume they follow the same standards. I doubt they would knowingly use lead paint. It seems that China is the problem and the chinese facotries are doing their own thing. ( not to china bash but in this partic area they aren't following standards it seems)

I asked how am I to know that the figures are safe. is there a way to test them personally for lead. Ann the person I talked to said she would see if she could call up the lab report on the sets I have. She isn't sure if this is possible, but she said she would email me either way.

We'll see. I feel like she respected my concerns and is trying to look into it.

I'm about to go paranoid though and seriously am ready to ban all mass made toys.

More about localism later

yeah- thanks. I knew there was a good reason to not go toa petstore. but I've been going in once a week to show T the dogs and then thought I wanted to support allth local plces. But even so- If I were paying $1000 for a dog- I'd go to the breeder not to see the dog in a glass room. And while I was feeling impulsive RE the cat- I knew I also wouldn't spend 200 for a pet store cat when they couldn't give me hard core info about it. If I were to spend hundreds of dollars for an animal again- I would go to the breeder ( and I found a breeder for the breed I want in town. I think I may swing by tomorrow. Luckily for me she only have males avail for this august. B/c I cannot spend what she charges for this cat. But I want to meet a breeder and talk about the breed and meet a cat and hold a kitten and see how T is with a kitten in a house. Maybe the breeder can give me tips too on how to keep my house safe etc....

I had a moment of weakness but dear lj- I promise not to do it!!!

xoxo

tell me again why pet stores are bad?

I go into our local one to show T the dogs each week. I saw the cutest kittens ever. It would be very nice to check weekly to see if they have a kitten I would like, but I know I'm not suposed to buy animals from pet stores, but honestly I don't know why.

The kittens come from people who call them to unload them. ( I stupidly didn't press more, she pretty much made it clear though that they aren't from any constant source. Nor do they know when they get them. ) The Vet sees them on Thursdays and they are ready for Sale Fridays so friday is the day to go and see.

They are pricey. And not any pure breed at all.

what thinks you?

oh- this two kids thing is nice sometimes. The kids are playing without me. T's got G's Mini Groovy girls and a truck and a big box and jamming on that. G is moving around the house reading books outloud to T and trying to round him up for whatever game she's playing. So far there isn't a lot of fighting so I'm please. I should do something productive...

http://www.myspace.com/etjusticepourtous

The D.A.N.C.E. single is free at itunes this week.

I want to change the name of my LJ. Not my butterflyv name, but the "the sleep diaries" name. I clicked on manage profile and I can't find the spot to change it.

anyone know?

pls help.

thanks.

should I take the kids into Boston on the T after I pick up G? I want to swing by H & M and see if they have fun socks and tights for G. Maybe some shirts for T.

My double stroller won't travel via T well. So it would be T in the ergo and stroller for G. ( she get's so mad when she can't sit in the stroller so I'd stroller her and then switch them for a short period when T got heavy.)

what do you think?

I need to figure it out ASAP

I know that this is so fluffy. But i† means a lot to me.

I just got my hair cut. It is simply horrible. I mean just horrible. I can't stop crying. I look like a poodle

I've been tagged, but I can't think of 10 odd unkown things about me.

I'm thinking....

Soooo.

I was totally psyched last week when I found out about a home based program for 16 month olds to 3 year olds. It is 3 mornings a week from 9-12:30. 30 dollars a day. Lunch provided. I think there is an early drop off available too.

I started to feel hopeful for next year. In Sept Toby wil be 16 Months and havinghim go somewhere for a few mornings while G is at school would be like getting my life back. I called the woman and besides her strong mass Accent she sounded nice. Ihave an appt to meet with her in a week after the school vacation is over.

However I brought it up to Ben and he said that it would only work if I was working. that we are pretty much spending more right now than what is coming in and to add to our expenses would be lunacy.

I feel really dissappointed and stuck again. I mean I grok him. He has a point. A very good point. But at the same time I need my life back.

So I've been thinking about this work thing. I'm so torn.

1. I need a lot of energy and time to find a job. part of me feels like I need Toby to be someplace so I can concetrate on finding a job and have slotted time for interviews etc. But if I did that the morning prog wouldn't be enough time for daycare purposes and I woul dhave to have TWO schools and a nanny person who would pick up T and G. that hardly seems cost effective.

2. I get angina thinking about having to struggle and work it out over vacation time during school vacation. Ben works a lot. He rarely has time off and he has to fight for school vacation time and so far he hasn't done so, so I could see the responsiblity to have time off to deal with vacation, sick days and such falling on me. Ben wouldn't take time off for his own sickness, I can't see how he would cancel his clinic for a snow day, or a sick day. Part of this is very unfair. And I could work myself into changing it- but part of me just doesn't want to.

3. I really enjoy having a good meal on the table each night. I am rushed as it is, but it feels good to have dinner ready, to sit down as a family and put the kids to bed at a decent hour. this all happens b/c I am around to get the afternoon working. One day I went out to do yoga on a friday night. I came home at 6:30 and it was a rush toget everyone settled and to have our take out pizza and get the kids to bed on time. And that was me doing something fun and cup filling. To rush home regularly and get the kids to bed in order to prepare for the next day is not something I look forward to.

4. but to be able to shower and get dressed in nice clothes and go somewhere and do something worthwhile and come home feels good.

I've sort of decided to try to look for some per diem work. Something that would be for one or two days. I really want it to be from 9-3 but good luck with that!

i don't know if I should try for the morning program for T and use that time to look for work and interview and then scramble to find a nanny to do pick up. Or look for a job and then scramble to find a nanny to do the whole day for T. I personally would rather school and nanny b/c I feel better about a school like setting than a nanny. I feel like I would rather be home then pay some one person to be at home with my kids...

I don't know how to go about this. I sent in my resume for that internet job I was talking about a while back, but they aren't hiring and liekly won't until the summer.

Sadly I keep looking and am tempted by the online scams to make money. I did get a $4 check for doing a survey, but $4 is not going to help me with daycare costs.

stuck stuck stuck.